Right now I feel so alone, alone in this park path, I feel so hopeless and lost. I don’t know which way is the right way out. I feel so confused, I don’t know which way to take to help me out. Which way is the right decision? What will help me find a solution? I…
Yeah, i forgive. It hurt, but who am I to be bitter? I’m no judge; I should’ve never said those things myself. Look at me, cursing like I think I’m something. Sorry to all the people I’ve hurt in my life. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. Yeah, I need to learn to keep cool.
So, as of now.. forgive me people. I’m tryna come back through all of this.
So in a way, if you’re one of the three people on my mind, in the various ways I’ve ever hurted you, I formerly apologize.
P.S. If you think it’s you, it probably is. coughcoughfagcough and coughcoughuglycough and coughcough*weirdface*cough
Bro? Really? Don’t call me that anymore. Never call me bro anymore. Cuz REAL bro’s stick up for their friends. And apparently you didn’t. Get out.
Kuya Dave was right. Once someone gets a girlfriend, what’s anything of importance compared to her? It’s like everything else is forgotten. And it looks like you forgot we were so-called “best friends”. Don’t call me that anymore. Cuz you’re apparently NOT my bro. I can’t believe you.
Are you forreal? I’m done with it. You done pissed me off. To even THINK you were a friend? And here you are saying sht behind my back?
Fckit. Talk all the sht you want. Idgaf. Yeah, judge my fckin life like ykno what’s up. DO THAT SHT. Judge my sht cuz ykno every mfckin thing about my life.
Yeah, and to even THINK you were here for me? I would think so? Apparently not.
Idgaf. Cuz I’m done with friends. I’ll be a mfckin loner. Apparently NOBODY gives a sht how I feel. Yeah, I’m the bad guy here. Okay. I’m not saying I’m perfectly innocent, but for you to judge me like that? Thinkin you kno my fckin situation? GTFO. Yeah, fck you for saying it. And fck you for letting it happen. To think any of you were a friend to me? I can’t believe it.
Ever noticed how you can be so happy at one moment, then a complete opposite mood the next day. You feel as if happiness rarely exist. Then you immediately get this weird instinct that once something good happens, you believe it’s “too good to be true.” You know sooner or later, that moment of happiness will end.
What exactly is Valentine’s day? Is it not a day to celebrate love, peace, and joy with other people? Seeing everyone else enjoy today made my day even worse. To be honest, I’m jealous of every single happy person out there. Why? Because they’re just that - HAPPY. And quite frankly, it feels like I’ve been the most upset I ever have been in the past two months.
Now I told myself I wouldn’t be one of those sad, depressing people on this day. But it appears to me that I’ve accomplished quite the opposite. What happened to the old me? I mean, how could I go from being the happiest person in the world, to rarely ever smiling? I can remember during Christmas when I was coming up with things that I wanted I thought to myself, I really don’t need anything. I have everything I want and need. But look where I’m at now. I’m not happy. And I don’t think I have been since December. Forreal, I hate this.
And why, why do I feel so useless and hopeless? It’s like I have nothing good coming my way. Basketball? Yeah, forget that. I’m never going to be good at that. I might as well give it up now. You would think that practicing everyday for around two hours or more would get me somewhere. No, again, I’m hopeless.
Back to the point, Valentine’s Day? It was horrible. Seeing everyone else carry around their bears, chocolate, balloons, and roses just reminds me how much my relationship life sucks. I screwed it up, big time. And no matter how hard I try, it’s like I can’t get there. So would you like to know how my Valentine’s Day was? In a nutshell, it was horrible. And have fun being happy like everyone else. Do me a favor? Be happy for me, because it seems like I’m not getting there any soon.